I had an extra five hours of my life today
Listening to: Late Night Alumni – What If I Say Please ( I think this band’s name is the most “in line with the type of music they make” of all. All of their songs are meant to be played … late at night.)
I got off of work around 6pm which is pretty crazy. I left work yesterday around 8 or so and tomorrow we are supposedly leaving at a reasonable Friday hour as well. I believe my manager went to the partner and said that if he didn’t tell us all to start going home earlier, our team would probably mutiny. Today the associate brought in our Red Robin take out orders and we decided to take our burgers to the cafeteria to eat, and right when we left the audit room, the partner came out of the room he was in and for about five seconds we all just stood and stared at him and he stared at us with a shocked expression and no one said anything. I honestly believe that the thought running through his mind was “oh my god it’s true – they are all taking their lunches and never coming back.”
I got incredibly pissed yesterday at work. After I left the audit room to climb the stairs up and down about fifteen times to work out my anger, I went back and the person who had pissed me off asked if I was ok, and I very quickly said no. I want to start erasing this habit of immediately trying to deny the existence of some conflict, and just look straight at the person and say “yes. I am actually pretty fucking pissed off but if we talk about it right now, it may not be the most constructive conversation.”
I kind of would rather prefer working non-stop for several days at horrible hours just to get stuff done, rather than have a few “normal” hour days here and there. Because we never know when those “normal” days will be so it’s not like I can plan anything in advance. Instead I just get told to go home and I feel very lost and it makes me dislike my job because my next thought is “well if I actually had more of a life throughout the year, I could have fun plans in an instant.”
I went home and my greatest accomplishment was vacuuming my room. It somehow took an entire hour to vacuum this little room. I even vacuumed the plastic wrap that I keep over my armchair. I went to the gym and finally rock climbed for the first time in three months. I completed three but I am really sad at how hard it is for me / how overly cautious I am about my ankle. Ugh.
God it’s already 1am again. I wish there were new episodes of things for me to watch.
<3 this music video. I hope I keep finding songs like this so I can start swinging back into indie / folk songs
